Chicken Cacciatora

As I said, cooking and cleaning the kitchen gives me a feeling of accomplishment. Today I couldn't do much about healing. I made a few phone calls, talked to a therapist from AMANECER, a community counseling service. It's very hard to find a therapy service that doesn't cost a lot of money and at the same time provides good therapy. Private therapy sessions can cost up to $200 and I don't have that kind of money. Support groups are formed by people absorbed by their own pain, not so able to help you with yours.
Today is one of those days when the hours go by and time becomes irrelevant and I have nothing to show for myself at the end of it.
I decided I'm going to make Chicken Cacciatora for dinner.
Bought 2 somewhat organic chicken thighs from Whole Foods. Put them in a frying pan with some olive oil, to get some color.
I minced 1 onion, 2 medium carrots, celery, a handful of parsley.
After the chicken got some color, I put it on the cutting board and cut it into smaller pieces.
I sauteed the minced veggies in fresh olive oil. I added oregano, salt, pepper, ground nutmeg, 1 garlic clove. When the veggies were done, I added the cut chicken, poured a glass of white wine over it, let it simmer. When the alcohol has evaporated, add one can of organic tomato juice. Let cook for about 15-20 minutes.
I bought the veggies from the farmers market and there is a difference in taste.
I will have a glass of wine and watch Notting Hill, while eating dinner.

Cooking

Ever since memories of the incest resurfaced, I gained about 20 pounds. Moments of empty desperation I filled with food.
I'm learning how to cook, to keep myself from gaining more weight and to make my diet all organic. I refuse to eat out, except for special events.
Some recipes bring me comfort not only when I eat the final product, but even when I start thinking about them, or cooking. I find repetitive actions, like washing dishes, to be soothing. They allow me to free my mind and my thoughts will go just about anywhere.
I go to the farmer's market once a week, to buy fresh produce. Organic, grass fed meats I either buy at Whole Foods or at the Santa Monica Farmers Market. I even found a few places where I could order meat online. The point is: I like to know where my food is coming from.